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25 and couple of thoughts....

Sun, 04 Mar 2007 14:11:33 GMT

finally hitting the quarter time....now officially OFFICIALLY officialy being the mid gal.....

this year's bday wasn't as eventful as last yea...i did not have bday celebrations/dinners 7 days before and after my bday like i did for last year....to sum up:

my 1st bday dinner was at Union with my old colleagues on 2/23 followed by a conference call at 9pm on a friday night as a dessert.....wakakakka they all said i became more ELEGANT and carerer woman look alike...wakakkk i like i like....on 2/24...had dinner with my lovely bitchass and hunny flo at a french (?!) restaurant at soho..followed by a connie-got-completely-trashed-mini-bday-party at HEI HEI....which wasn't the initial intention of my little gathering at the first place.....geeez....i am never ever ever gonna get that drunk again...mid gal's body can't afford that much alchie in the system anymore.....thanks all for coming tho i had a GREAT GREAT GREAT time!!!! (^_________^).....on 2/25....went to CEO with kel kev cc and couple of other friends to past the 12am moment.....2/26 bday...lunch with my UBiatcheS whom i dearly loved and chill drinks with my other bitchass and her other colleagues at club no. 9.....wasn't til last night 3/3 i went to stanley and had a super efficient dinner which lasted for 45 minutes with my hk buddies....../end of bday celebrations

i never tot this quarter life crisis will hit me so much......yesterday i went to have my regular eye check up where i am suppose to put down my age...and fuck...'2''5'!!!!.....just went to dinner at my porpor's place and she keeps reminding me the fact that i'm 25 and 26 according to the chinese calendar and keeps pushing me to find a guy...gosh........STOP ASKING ME THAT..when that day comes... i will BROADCAST it on TVB and let every friggin ppl in this world know that I AM MADLY IN LOVE WITH A GUY!!!

i had the slightlest bit of gloomy feeling on friday night....i got off work at 9:30pm....thinking it's friday night and a lovely adorable gal shouldn't be going home so early and should go out and have fun...called up every possible frenz that i have on my phonebook....they were either home, doing some mad drinking which i didn't want cuz i have eye check up the very next morning, or having dinner or movies....i ended up...buying 6 cans of Carlsberg Special Brew beer downstairs from 7-11...a pack of ciggarettes...and watched the Oscar til i dun remember when i fell asleep on the sofa.....that night i finally say to myself, dude, i am a lonely pathetic single girl who is 25 years old. ...and and and...with so many movies out these days i just so hope that i could find somebody who would go movies with me....i know i need to stop thinking like that but just that friday night really hit me....

i have listed out a lot of things that i want to get done this year....1) eye check up (done) 2) thorough body check 3) woman style body check 4) teeth check 5) find a hobby/interest 6) drink less or try not to get drunk 7) go on a vacation with lotsa sunshines and beaches a 'hea' style holidy 8) keep dancing every saturday ....will add more when i think of more. but seriously, i can't emphasize how important health is that i finally realized....if u get blind u can't see this beautiful world or read inspiring books. with a great healthy body you could so many things but with a sick body all the things that ur doing daily woul seems extra hard and double the effort to finished.

oh oh oh...and another thing....for those of my dear friends who know me well...i am that kinda person who tends to avoid a problem/situation rather than facing it...for example, if something happens, my approach will be run away, leave it there, and eventually it will be fine at the end and there would be no more problem. today, i finally realized that it's a pessismistic kinda way to deal with problems...that is a sign of weakness......i am just not brave enough to face the problem directly cuz i am afraid to have to hear things that i dun want to hear or stuff that i dun want to see. but leaving the problem there, won't make myself feel any better cuz it's just there to haunt me and i just can't stop thinking about it. so, decided i need to be a stronger person, i will learned how to face with problems.....instead of the problem to keeping haunting me endlessly, why can't i just get into it and get it over it, whether it's an answer i wanted to hear or not, at least i know the answer. so saturday i did my first step...and i think i have gotten the answer already today.....which i felt great today becuz i dun have to keep linger on this anymore. so...this year..i will be a STRONGER CON CON AND NOT BE AFRAID OF ANYTHING!!

2007

Sun, 14 Jan 2007 13:45:34 GMT

so a year has passed......new year new beginning (?)

so many things happened since my last entry...arghh....i guess it will take me ages to type them all out...well..since theres wasn't really much that happened..in short...

1) London Trip 11/20 - 12/19 - it wasn't as good (or as bad) as i expected..i mean...seriously it was BORING..work work...shopping...stay in the hotel...didn't really do much (or was it that i didn't want to do much there)....but of course..i gotta see some of my london colleagues..the dev team responsible for the project building up network receiving some positive feedbacks from my boss which didn't make the trip worthless.....but if you were to ask me if i had fun...hahaha..i would say it was OKAY...you could probably could tell when everytime ppl asked me how was my trip and i just ended the conversation by saying it was OKAY....so..nothing much about it....haha so i take it as part of my early bonus...heeheee

2) x'mas/new year - surprise surprise surprise! it's the usually drinking + countdown kinda thing..the most unplanned x'mas/new year i'd been thru since i'm back......but it was fun....gotta spend time with my dear friends.. v(^_________^)v

so....now it's two weeks into 2007....and i was talking to my friends and i think i'm experiencing what ppl called the quarter-life crisis...symptons include: feeling insecure about ones career (ur not at the top of the class but definitely not a newbie), confusing identity within ones family (you are not being considered as an adult but yet you can't say that ur a teenager anymore), reaching the social circle plateau (or the shrinking of), feeling demotivated and uninterestingly towards a lot of stuff that you once had passion for, and finally the fruistrations about relationships. In sum - I AM LOST

for the last two weekends...i've stayed home alone....i did had an urge to call friends up for dinner or drinks but i dropped that idea and feel that i am more comfy at home. i wanted to get a massage on sunday but knowing that it will be crowded everywhere and feel that i should stay home instead. when i looked at the nice weather outside thinking that i've wasted my weekends - but there's nothing that could push me out of my coach and tv (not that theres any good shows on anyway). on weekday, i just wanna rush home asap lying on the coach and wait til bed time. i feel the only thing that's left for me is work now. hahah..how pathetic! it's the first time in my life that i actually feel that i want to go to work and that's the only thing that could drag me out of my sick home. hahaha.....

i guess it might have been a very good opportunity for me to be alone free from distractions and actually THINK about what's ahead of me.......hahaha i am not unhappy tho - i guess i just need to figure something out and redirect the way that my life is heading towards

25 in coming in a months time.....wooo wooooo....i am no longer a sei lang mui.....grow up grow up grow up!! ^_^

Can you keep a secret? + Perception

Tue, 19 Sep 2006 13:47:20 GMT

two days in a roll..my xanga essays are on a roll!!!! XDDDDDDDDDD

so recently, i've finished reading this chick novel 'Can you keep a secret?' (thanks to cin)..it's about a girl...who had 'accidentally' told her other half (at that time she didn't know that he was THE ONE) about all her secrets...and about the disadvantages/advantages for having someone who know so much about you etc and stuff...the point i am trying to make today isn't really about the novel...it's about this random tot that i had while i was taking the bus home tonight: is there really a person on earth who possibly knows of ALL your secrets....not only facts but as well as you deep true feelings inside of you?

come on...be honest!!! i bet there must be something that you from your best best best bestest friend0...yet i mean is..yeah you could have possibly tell your best friend about what happened..all the happy stuff embarass stuff sad stuff (that you might not want to mention about again in your life)...but is that ALL about that? what about your feelings?....i am positive that are some hidden thoughts or feelings that you have not told (or forgotten if that will makes you feel better) or shared with your best friends...why is that? ur embarss to say even tho he/she is ur best friend? hah dun assume i know the answer cuz i am writing this entry..i'm striving for one too..is it becuz you think there are something tat's better kept inside and only for yourself? is it becuz you think that your best friend would disagree what you said and you didn't bother telling? is it becuz if you tell your friend what you think you are gonna get scolded by your friend who got a completely different set of values apart from yours?

look around and see...do you see differenp groups of people around whom you consider them as your best friend but yet they do not share the same secret/knowldge ofs yours? A friend knows about you and X guy that ur seeing while B friend knows about you and X guy plus the Y guy that you had a fling with and C friend knows about you and X guy and Y guy and Z guy who you had slept with...hahaha..why is it?....to me...it's a matter of understanding...like you won't 'play piano to a cow' and you know well enough who would be able to take different parts of ur secret world and still give you their valuable advices and opinions.....it's not like u purposedly intentionally missed out certain information - but you see no point of sharing that piece of secrets if you feel that you will just be blown away....but that doesn't mean that you dun treat the person your best friend because of the things that you two went thru and you two just click in certain ways etc....like a pair of best friends could still well be consider best friends eventho all they do is just sat there and not talk during the whole time spent together...haha..it's guess it's hard to find someone who knows you in side out out side in (hahaha i dun even know myself that well enough!!)...//end of secrets

i'm sure we do..sometime in our lives that we judged someone initially by theirs looks...the rumors...heard from the grapevine kinda stuff....it's kinda unfair but it's part of the human nature...that happens to me a lot of times when i first met some ppl i tot i would never be able to get along with but actually they had became my best friends!..this is inevitably in this evil world where ppl are trying to protect themselves in the best possible ways and avoid trying to get hurt by trusting the wrong people..that's like the first line of defense for most of the ppl..especially in hk where ppl have this big thick wall built around them and refuse to let out their own personality when they first met new friends...not did i realize that was a completely incorrect concept when i first started uni..but even more when i am out in the workforce meeting lotsa lotsa new friends thru various channels.....throughout these three years back in hk..i can't recall the countless occasions where i've change my views totally about some people after i getta know them better.....i am not saying you are stupid enough to trust every person you possibly met.....of course you should have a sense of self awareness and also trust your own judgement and 6th sense..can't be an innocent sheep thinking 'oh there are no bad guys iin this world and people are all kind in nature'...often i found people are more reluctant to open themselves....and if ur not opening urself ppl sense it and they will be acting the same in return and cycle continuess..walls building thicker and thicker and that's why people are saying 'it's very hard to find true friends nowadays'.....

first you have to realize:.. not all rumors are true. i liked how i was talking to my friend how many of the rumorss that we heard are from the victims point of view and of course they will 'draw black' as much as possible about that person la......one of my best friend..she might possibly have the worst reputationi around my other friends who know her and always telling me to be careful about her and stuff and etc...but still she stays as one of my true best friends becuz i believe she treats me dearly from her heaert and i know there's no other person in tthis world who can argue with me about her true heaerts to me. she loves me and i love her...that's it!! who cares what she did to other people or what i hearad from other people..that's enough for her to be my best friend and for me to give her my true hearts. hahaha....i am sure i might not have the most desirable reputation but yet my friend decided to approach me unbias-ly and know me as a person instead of knowing me from all these rumors...accepted my flaws and appreciated the good qualities of me..why can't we do the same? OPEN YOUR HEART AND FEEL IT YOURSELF! - do not always get tell by the others what are stuff supposed to be like and no one knows it better than yourself...//end of juudgement

DELAY NO MORE

Mon, 18 Sep 2006 13:33:54 GMT

long time no write now!!!! hahaha.....of coz there are things that happened during this one month period but touch wood nothing horrible happened which is fortunate enough for me to say THANK GOD

yeah life aint smooth and things do happen unexpectedly..hahah..u could probably tell from the title...delay delay delay...it's about my LONDON TRIP!! wakakka...it's now been delayed until further notice..last i heard from my boss and the team thats responsible for the project today proposed time fame 20 nov to 22 dec...which means i still have approximately two months in HK with my buddies!!!stll time to catch my zi muis bday...my october babies....(meaning broken-concon)......i dunno hahah what would a normal person think/feel when he/she is in my situation? ok like originally this london trip was supposed to be last for one week in the middle of august..so i had my greece back pack trip planned and fits perfectly into my schedule..then they start delaying and extending my stay in london...so i have to cancel my back pack trip and re-planned my hols in dec so i will be taking two whole weeks off to spend time with my lovely kashu since he will be back in HK at that time...then the trip got delayed..by one week...for another...then it was officially announced that the trip will be delayed until further notice!...and now they are telling me..it might happened between 20 nov to 22 dec...so that crashes with my planned lovely time with my kashu?!?!!?.....wakakakaka....a person in my shoes might get frustrated...confused...even furious as plans have to change constantly...but yet i am calm...hahah whenever they got new piece of info on the trip for me (and most of the times are pretty last min!!)...i dun feel fuzz or anything about...and actually it was my bosses who got frustrated and always trying to figure out from the london ppl who's their latest plan!!! hahah it's like 皇帝唔急太監急...u know what i mean?...my bosses were actually amzazd how calm i am dealing with this whole situation...haha....u know..thing about being on ur own nothing there to hold you back no plans need to be rigid really i must say is somewhat an advantage in my situation..if i were to plan a family trip and got cancel every last second..wakakakak U THINK I WON'T GET MAD TOO MEI!!!!!....o well..we'll see what's next....afterall i miss my friends in HK and i can't imagine to be w/o u guys alone in london!!!

continue with this being alone thing..hahaha...so the other day i went Happy hour with some of my friends + new friends on a thursday night..got pretty tipsy right so i went home at 1..next morning...i woke up at 9 along with a big 'FUCK' coming out my mouth the first thing i saw the alarm clock...so i told my colleague that i would be late for half an hour and plz tell my boss about it...so i went to work and my boss started to chat me 'so is everything alright? cin said that ur gonna be late this morning?'...hahahahahh i couldn't find the most legitimate reason for my lateness so i said to him 'you know..thing about living alone is that if you missed the alarm...no one is gonna be there to awke u up'...my boss went' hah'...HAHAHAHAH...i seriously think that my boss should award me for my HONESTY!!!!!! kekeke...then that day following i was in the shower...u know how my showers like..the shower curtain basically does a really bad job from preventing the water from leaking out so it would be all wet by the time i'm done showering...so i stepped out of the shower and WAHOOOOOO i slipped!!!! thank god it wasnt like a complete fall that i didn't get hurt or anything...then i was thinking 'if i broke my leg and couldnt even walk out from the bathroom nor could i reach my phone..no one is gonna know!! i would be like stuck in the bathroom for days...months...years until my rotten smell got to my neighbors then ppl would dsicover that i got stuck in the bathroom....that was one scary tot...glad that i have friends who would call me once in a while asking whether i am still alive..haahahaha......that's random ok i know...

relatsionship relationships relationshipz!..hahaha ok...i heard stories from my frenz...it's funny how ppl will tell me their stories and everything but i would just sit there and not respond at all cuz i didn't know what to say?...but i do appreciate that my friends share with me their stories...afterall that's how we learnt...u dun expect urself to have experience all these problems (not only relationships la) to learn from ur own mistake gwar!!! it does make me think more about my own self..and more i heard ..the more i think what i want...mm...like i'm having a clearer picture as in what concon really wants and what concon doens't want!!!! hahahahaahh i am not gonna type them all out here...but yeah i know!!! keke...THANX ALL!!!!!!....my blessings to ya: the happy ones continue to become happy and the mo gum hoi sum or puzzling ones will find their way out of their problems and become the happy ones tooooooooooooooo HURHUR!!!!

it's getting to the end of september and there are still a list of items that i wanna do and looking forward to. see how many of these could be achieve when i have my MEGA NEW YEAR RECEP!

1) watch Devils wear Prada on 30 September 2) watch Click 3) watch 太丈夫2 with my CF 4) Halloween at Ocean Park with my CF 5) London Trip 6) Waiting for the arrival of Kashu and Shirley 7) planning for x'mas dinner/part/countdowns 9) farewell to loszepui 10) BBQBBQBBQ (i had 0 BBQ for this summer!! >.<..i really wanted to BBQ)

hahaha as i was typing out the list..there are FAR MORE then what's above hahaha but i am too lazy to list them out...that's enough to occupy me til the rest of the year hahahahah filled with little events with my friday drinking buddies/HH/Saturday madness.... my left hand is tired..hahahahaok i will stop!!

SIDE NOTE: ppl wonder why did i named myself AUNTIE DONNIE on msn?...the DONNIE part was ancient so i dun bother to explain here...so what happened to AUNTIE was that one day i was across the building to have dinner at my porpor's place on a saturday night...my usual attire to porpor's dindin: PJs , glasses, 0 makeups, un-blow dried hair. so i went and after dinner i came back and get ready to go out....so in the elevator..there was this couple with their baby..i think around 6 months old?...who was actually quite cute and active..so i was playing with him and saying hi to him like i always do with random babies i dunno..then the baby's mom get all hyped up and excited and said to her son 'hai ar..that's E E (E E = auntie) ar'!!!! OMFG...wtf...i was SPEECHLESS and didn't say a word!! the baby's father looked at me for 1 sec and i think he felt the tension in the air and dare not to say aa word becuz we still have 10 floors to go and he was afraid that the end of the world starts there.................so that's me AUNTIE DONNIE!!!

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Thu, 10 Aug 2006 13:06:32 GMT

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Sun, 30 Jul 2006 14:51:54 GMT

life is not so bad afterall....

where to start? mm...i guess thers not really a point where i could start saying how much i am enjoying my life right now...(hahahhaha!!! i knowwwwwwwwwwwww u guys are sick of me showing off my wonderful life!)....but i guess everythings running smoothly in every way of my life at this moment and i can't ask for more ^o^. know how i was complaining about work the other day? so i was all mm hoi sum and down becuz if 'my didn't make it'...then on tuesday my boss suddenly asked me to have a little chat with him for 5 mins and guess what? he's sending me to London for a week in August for some kinda user testing!!! heeheee...i mean yeah it might not be a big deal..but i absolutely thinks that this is a golden opportunity....not only did i get free tix free hotel and stuff, but also a great chance for me to do some networking getta know more ppl in other office locations hence hopefully this will increase my chance to advance upward.....well....worse come to worse and i didn't get anything out of this business trip...but hey i still getta take a week off to london and have fun therE! i'd never been to london beforeeeeeeeeee XD

related to work.....despite there are some ppl that get on my nerves...but i am so gladdddd that i am surrounded by a bunch of nice and easy going ppl....especially i am buiding a more than just work related relationship with the new girl....cin is just such a fun nice gal that i chat with everyday on our company msn thing...and we would just bitch about people (yes.....we have came to a conclusion that we are BIATCHES! kekeke)...talk about shopping, johnny depp, books, just basically everything!!! when i look at my other frenz who hate to go to work everyday becuz of people or work nature. yeah in a way i hate going to work tooo but that's only becuz i am not a morning person and i hate getting up in the morning!.....but at least i got good colleagues to help me to get thru the day which is already more than enuff for me.....heehee...i guess i am lucky

and for friends, no doubt this is one part of my life that i am very proud of and have no complaints!......when i think about the people around me, they are all nice caring...just a bunch a nice dudes that i love spending my time....even the people that i've just met, they are all a bunch of pure hearted peepz who have no bad intention inside....i guess 'like people hang out with like people'...HAHAHAHAHHHAHAHAAHA

relationship wise, hahah, at this moment it's still blank. BUT! i dunno if i've mentioned it before i am more and more enjoying my singleton days....kekekeke...and i was talking to my bitchass the other day....i think 'that person' would have to be super dupie good that i am willing to give up my good old single life...hahahah....at this moment, i still have not met that person yet.....so i will stay a happy single...hahaha sumsum maybe i should think about taking over your seat to be the forever-honored chairman of our singleton club!

i guess that only one aspect of my life i need to work on is with my family.....sigh...but it's kinda hard...complicated story.....me and my mom are two stubborn asses that won't bow to one another. she will wait for my call and i will wait for hers and just that no one will take the initiative. mm.....i guess i should be the one who take the first move and improving our relationship....argh...enuff said about my family

so.....this past weekend was fun! drinking on friday, phantom yesterday and mooched + dang lungED. hahah...phantom was ok soso wasn't as good as the one that i watched in nyc. mooooooch wasssssss funnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn! my friends were amazed how i managed to stayed til 4 am becuz usually i would be leaving before 3. got myself real drunk from dang lung hahahahaha and ended up sleeping with my contact on until 5pm....am still 'hanging over' no at almost 12am...hahaha shiat...how am i suppose to get to work tmr!~

so i was talking to this my new friend last night while we were taking break from our butt moves...then i asked her 'how's life' she said 'you know, it's just one of those not like i am happy but then i am not unhappy you know".....then she asked me the same question then without a tot i gave her my answer 'I AM VERY HAPPY!'......then i think about the answer she gave....i mean i am also just living a normal plain life too with no much ups (or downs).....then why do i always feel happy? what's there to be happy about? hahahah..mm...i dunno...i guess it realy has to do alot with your own personality.....i am a very easily satisfiied person i suppose....it will only take very little effort to make my joy...i guess that really what keeps my cheers and smiles all day ^0^

hahahahah...ok....enough showing off.....try to force myself into bed dun wanna be the monday zombie again! =P

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 15:08:57 GMT

SIDE NOTE:

Bad lucks do come in waves and bad things is like a buy one get one free 'gift'.....

just now i've entered my new entry and getting myself all washed and ready for bed...the electricity all of a sudden shutted down for 10 seconds and i was scared to death 'how am i gonna sleep w/o the ac on and what am i suppose to do???'......then the elec flows back....wanted to turn my computer back on again and the IE wouldn't work until now....argh...FOOKFOOKFOOK..going to turn off the pc tonight before i sleep...crossing my fingers...

FRUSTRATIONS

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 14:51:14 GMT

ok...finally i could feel that the 犯太歲 effect is affecting me...

frustrations...not about friends/love..it's about work this time...i guess u can't have everything going the way you want in all aspects of your life......FUCK....i got nowhere to vent....

shiatt!!........i didn't make it....

STORY OF PIGGIE (June 18 - 24)

Mon, 03 Jul 2006 12:36:46 GMT

ok this time...instead of a long a55 entry..i am going to write about the story of piggie....enjoy! ^.^

so...every story begins with the sentence 'once upon a time.......'

once upon a time..there was this cute little pig, let's called her Piggie...she got so fad up with her current life...over-pressured from work and overwhelmed by the hk lifestyle...she decide to go away and went on a trip with her two other pig friends to Malaysia + Kota Kinabalu (city in sabah where sunshines and beaches are waiting)...

been looking forward to her trip 3 months in advance..researching online and looking at the hotel that she is gonna stay practically every hour during work and at home....finally the time has came!!...but piggie had made a terrible mistake...she decided to went and have a 'light drink' with her friends the night before taking off (flight was scheduled at 9am on sunday).....ok..light drink she thinks, Piggie decided that she would leave at 12am and go home and pack.....one long island ice tea....one more wouldn't matter really that won't get piggie drunk..then at around 11ish..her friends can't control themselves and decide the deal of black label HKD800 each and buy 2 get 1 free was good value...piggie thinks 'ok i will leave at 3 pack and have a short nap'...glasses after glasses....bottles after bottles...piggie ended up getting tipsy (majorly!!) and went home at 5 am!!!!!....shiiiiat....airport bus depart at 6:15am and piggie still hasn't pack!!! down herself a bowl of fishball noodles in 5 mins piggie quickly ran home and pack...bit drunkened piggie had no idea what did she pack and ended up bringing with herself with 3 jackets 2 pairs of jeans and 1 T shirts (note: avg temperature in Malay was 30+ degress)....made it to the bus...sleep like a dead pig on the bus ..waited for her friends...still very tipsy and drunk at time when she finally arrived Kuala Lumpur around 12ish!!! got her luaggues...and everything and arrived at this nice hotel at around 2ish...without a word piggie changed into her PJ and went into a coma until dinner time.....that's when Piggie finally begins her vacation!! (Piggie promise herself she won't get drunk anymore the night before her vacation going forward.....pls note tho: Piggie had the same promised wayyyyy back when she was 16 but ended up getting drunk everytime before she take off)

so...relaxing week for Piggie....stayed two days at KL...all she did was...breakfast...walk around twin tower...back to hotel and nap...dinner...back to hotel....no. 2....sleep...breakfast....nap...dinner....sleep..(with cig breaks in between of course...continue her Ciggie Tour tradition whenever Piggie went away with her two friends)...finally on Tuesday ...the day going to Sabah the sunshine vacation awaits!!!!!

arrived at Sabah around night time....took a 45min ride to Rasa Ria....WOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!! piggie won't say it's the nicest or grand-est hotel Piggie ever been to..but definitely a 5-start resort and decorations just perfectly situable for a sunshine + beaches vacation!!!!!!.......

so what Piggie did in Sabah:

!) wake up 8ish in the morning

2) Hotel breakfast included

3) Get herself ready sunbathing and reading at poolside

4) nap in the afternoon

5) took the shuttle bus to the city (or walk around the hotel or reading on balcony if not going to the city)

6) coffee break

7) seafood dinner

8) bus back to hotel

9) walk around hotel trying to find something to do

10) sleep around 12ish at night

of cuz..ciggie and no.2 breaks in between to help digest with the massive amount of food being consumed by Piggie.....Piggie ate like there's no tomorrow and continue stuffing of food into her mouth.....

highlights tho is that piggie went deep sea fishing in the South China Sea where Piggie managed to catched 6 fishes!!! that was the first time Piggie fish anything in her life...(tho it was no technique what so ever the crew staff were helping piggie the whole time...hahahaha)......and there was this guy who looks like beckham but too bad Piggie thinks that he doesnt look like hes even 20 yet.....

hahahaahahhaha....ooohhhhhh it was also the first time Piggie wear two-piece in front of people!!!!!!!....(Piggue refuse to share her two-piece pictures with anyone!!! =D)

快樂既時間過得特別快....time to wake up and come back into reality....Piggie returned to HK after 7 days of vacation. But it was a memorable trip for Piggie...Piggie never thought she would enjoy a sunshine+ beaches vacation before (she had always fancy trips to citiy places e.g. Tokyo, Europe) and now she's just totally obessessed!!!!!

Piggie came back...slightly tanned (tho some freanz tot shes not tanned enough)..fully recharged.....gained EXTRA pounds that are easily visible (note: Piggie was not physically fit at the beginning of the trip...mm...or i should say Piggie was never in shape for her whole life.....that's one of the major characteristics that Pigs are famous for).....tho Piggie only came back for a month...she tot she was back for a longgggggg time already with all these work and packed schedules......sigh

Piggie wants to go on another trip before the end of the year...probalby Bali or seomthing...anyone intersted in joining Piggie??

RE: Comfort Zone

Fri, 02 Jun 2006 16:55:56 GMT

(due to complaints i received from my dear frenz, i would TRIED to make my xanga entry short....no guarantee tho..keke )

i have always wanted to write this xanga entry but there were always other things that had stopped me (uh-huh excuse)...but it's something i really wanted to share with my friends with..

so, have u guys been in a situation where something suddenly pops up in ur life and then everything else around you seems to be surrounded about that very topic?...you may have guessed what i wanted to talk about today, yes it's regarding the subject of COMFORT ZONE...it all started with my hip hop class and one of the blog entry written by my intimacy-relationship friend (kekekek..i love that definition)

for those who know me or being updated to my most recent activities might have known that...i've started taking some fun hip hop clases with my intimacy friend three weeks ago...what happened was my friend big head is a big fan of hip hop and she's been taking hip hop classes at this studio at TST and she had always wanted to try and 'grab somebody and shake your ass sum mo' with her.....so being her dear friend of coz i did not hesitate when she asked me to join with her. so, never been realy a dancing person or a big fan or hip hop but with my personality of always wanted to try new things, i said yes and was very looking forward to my first hip hop class. tho between the time i said 'yes i will come with you' and the actual class, there was some hesitations in between. things like 'Am i going to look stupid?' ' will i look too old?' ' it's in friggin TST which means i have to cross the tunnel which i seldomly do' 'i can't go out on friday nights anymore with my sweaty stinky body'.....but i guess i wanted something new in my life so i went. actually it was wayyyyyyyyyyyyy better than i expected and i realy did enjoyed the class!!!....then i was reading my frenz' blog and how she was saying people sometimes need to get out of their comfort zone and try something that they might had never tot they would do....(she was referring to the hip hop class and the streching exercise we do in class - it was about how she never tot she could out-streched so much with the push from our JER SIR)...so i start thinking about my hip hop experience. i would had never tot that i would be so interested in hip hop dancing and actually took the time and effort and some scacrifices (i.e. time, money). if i kept my hesitation befor emy first hip hop class and ended up not going with big head, i would never knew that how much fun hip hop could be. it's all about doing something outside the normal track of ur daily routine life. you never know how much you gain by just taking that one little step and tried something new. now - i've built up another little hobby of my own and looking forward to my friday hip hop classes, went out and shopped for my hip hop gear, d/l hip hop music, think of the moves that i've learnt that day in class. all my mind is ALL about HIP HOP now. really have to thanks big head for bringing me such an exciting experience. MUAH!

so...story continues....so i was out with my dams on tuesday night right and was talking to one of my dear friends which we haven't been seeing each other for couple months, so i was asking how's her love life and stuff and she told me that she's dating. so usual girls talk she would asked me how's mine and i told her i am still single and pretty much enjoyig my life being single. so she was like 'ok, so your now inside of your comfort zone and doing stuff which ur comfortable and what you've been right now?'...comfort zone?! that sounds familiar!!!!...so she went on talking 'yeah i was in my little comfort zone just like you do when i broke up with my ex 4 years ago on bad terms....but then once ur willing to take the courage and stepped outside of ur comfort zone just for a sec, you might have the most wonderful experience that you would had have in ur life just like me right now'....then i relate that to my hip hop experience and yeah she is correct. i am not pin pointing bout relationship matters about this comfort zone issue, it could as well apply to anything that's going on in ur life right now. to cut it short: i will be more open minded of any new things or opportunities that might happen to me in the future and expand my comfort zone to include more 'item's in there! i know that would be a life-rewarding experience!

so...i am now all washed and comfy at home after my hip hop class and drinks with my dear umich frenz......heeheeee...life is good and do COME! whatever things that might be happening to me i am readdddddddy for you!!!!!

looking forward to my intercon buffet tmr with my darns....taking next thurs/fri/mon/tues off for my blooooooody hell consol exam which i have not stuided at all..hahahahahahahahaahha....k...may get up early and say hello to mr page 1 of my text book!!!