so a year has passed......new year new beginning (?)

so many things happened since my last entry...arghh....i guess it will take me ages to type them all out...well..since theres wasn't really much that happened..in short...

1) London Trip 11/20 - 12/19 - it wasn't as good (or as bad) as i expected..i mean...seriously it was BORING..work work...shopping...stay in the hotel...didn't really do much (or was it that i didn't want to do much there)....but of course..i gotta see some of my london colleagues..the dev team responsible for the project building up network receiving some positive feedbacks from my boss which didn't make the trip worthless.....but if you were to ask me if i had fun...hahaha..i would say it was OKAY...you could probably could tell when everytime ppl asked me how was my trip and i just ended the conversation by saying it was OKAY....so..nothing much about it....haha so i take it as part of my early bonus...heeheee

2) x'mas/new year - surprise surprise surprise! it's the usually drinking + countdown kinda thing..the most unplanned x'mas/new year i'd been thru since i'm back......but it was fun....gotta spend time with my dear friends.. v(^_________^)v

so....now it's two weeks into 2007....and i was talking to my friends and i think i'm experiencing what ppl called the quarter-life crisis...symptons include: feeling insecure about ones career (ur not at the top of the class but definitely not a newbie), confusing identity within ones family (you are not being considered as an adult but yet you can't say that ur a teenager anymore), reaching the social circle plateau (or the shrinking of), feeling demotivated and uninterestingly towards  a lot of stuff that you once had passion for, and finally the fruistrations about relationships.  In sum - I AM LOST

for the last two weekends...i've stayed home alone....i did had an urge to call friends up for dinner or drinks but i dropped that idea and feel that i am more comfy at home.  i wanted to get a massage on sunday but knowing that it will be crowded everywhere and feel that i should stay home instead.  when i looked at the nice weather outside thinking that i've wasted my weekends - but there's nothing that could push me out of my coach and tv (not that theres any good shows on anyway).  on weekday, i just wanna rush home asap lying on the coach and wait til bed time.  i feel the only thing that's left for me is work now. hahah..how pathetic! it's the first time in my life that i actually feel that i want to go to work and that's the only thing that could drag me out of my sick home. hahaha.....

i guess it might have been a very good opportunity for me to be alone free from distractions and actually THINK about what's ahead of me.......hahaha i am not unhappy tho - i guess i just need to figure something out and redirect the way that my life is heading towards

25 in coming in a months time.....wooo wooooo....i am no longer a sei lang mui.....grow up grow up grow up!! ^_^